09 October, 2010

It's not always what it seems...

Nearly 7 weeks passed since I moved to Oxford and I slowly start to settle in but not everything is as wonderful as it seems.

I got used to my work and the journey to get there every morning, the differences between my work at home and the work in England.
I know some nice places where I like to go and I'm not worried anymore for getting on the wrong bus or walking home the wrong way, e.g

I own a nice library membership card (it has the Sheldonian Theatre on the front!!!!) and I also own a Costa Coffee Club Card. I know the last thing is quite random, I just felt like saying it.

The city is still quite nice and there are still a few things left for me to discover but I still have some time left here, right?

Anyways, it's not as wonderful as it all seems to be. I already said that. The thing is that I'm not hanging around at University (and just the record & the 1000th time, I'm NOT a student at the University of Oxford!!!!) with a bunch of people approx. my age to hang out with in the evening and get to know the city and that stuff. I'm working with people who have their own family and friends.

I'm a stranger in this city and I hardly know anyone. I was stupid, I admit I didn't even think of that before I moved here. It may sound so easy to get to know people, but it isn't. And going out alone makes me feel pathetic and lonelier. I mean, think of yourself in your hometown. How many times do you go out alone? Or walk into a cafe and sit down at a stranger's table to talk? I'm sure you don't, not on your own.

Some things are simply not as nice as they seem to be...